This quote was published on the blog of one of my favorite podcasters, Laura H. Miller.
My favorite quote from someone I respect very much.
The last time I read that quote I didn’t exactly understand the meaning of “note”. I was really intrigued by the phrase “note” because it made me think of an earlier time in my life. I was in a meeting with a couple of friends and it was an awkward moment.
I think the reason the quote is so awesome is because it makes me think of my own childhood. It was a rainy spring day and the kids were all playing in the mud. I had a pocket knife and was about to cut the grass one of the kids threw a handful of grass at me. I thought, “What the fuck, I’ll cut the grass with this.” I was wearing a dress and I didn’t realize how I was dressed until later.
That moment had me in tears. I was a little kid and I thought I was going to die. I also had a pocket knife. It was the exact same moment when I realized that I could be a really good person and be awesome as well. I was still young and didn’t know what the hell I wanted to do with my life.
Just like the “I’m cool, let me grow up” meme, the idea of growing up is the ultimate fear. But if you’re already growing up, there’s no stopping you. The idea of growing up is one of the most fundamental things in life. It’s why we play videogames and why we eat cookies. It’s why we get into trouble in the first place.
Even though I dont want to be an adult, I was still terrified of being an adult. Thats why I played videogames for so long. The idea of reaching adulthood is a scary concept. I was terrified of not knowing where I was and where I was going. I was scared of being afraid. Fear takes us out of our comfort zone and makes us feel exposed and vulnerable.
This is the part where we start to think, “This isn’t right.
Fear is always wrong. It isn’t a way to protect ourselves from what the world might do to us. It’s a way to protect ourselves from real life. This is why we are afraid of going to bed at night. This is why we are afraid of our parents. This is why we are afraid of our friends. This is why we are afraid of sex. This is why we are scared of death and dying. We are afraid of going to school.
As a kid I never wanted to go to school. I knew I would never be able to do it. I didn’t have the same confidence then that I do now. School was a big step between me and the outside world. A step that I feared I would never be able to take because I had never been exposed to it. I didn’t want to be the only one who didn’t know how to get what I wanted.
